A look inside the mind of a baby... as far as her mother can tell.

My little baby is a whole month old already, soon to be 5 weeks... Her cheeks are filling out, her eyes are focusing, her thighs are gaining in chubby rolls and she is discovering that her voice can do more than cry. It is an exciting world to be in. Everything is new and fascinating, shadows and contrasts in color hold amazement to be studied in depth, sunlight is at once both startling and soothing, watching something move beyond the current scope of vision happens less, now that her eyes and head have learned to follow it...

It is also a scary time. Sneezes and coughs are startling to a little body that has only been experiencing them for a few short weeks. Hunger pangs, the need to burp or go are all uncomfortable and frightening to a little mind with no concept of the passage of time... She doesn't even know she has toes and those fingers that keep poking her eyes can not possibly be hers... can they?

They descend out of nowhere and suddenly they are all consuming... they must have been there forever and there is no end in sight... Hunger!! Then suddenly there is food... but oh! Too much! Control is regained of the steady flow of warmth, but there is something burning somewhere... Soggy and uncomfortable... This discomfort is so distracting eating becomes a frustrating process of drinking and fussing. Suddenly there is no more food, somewhere is cold, not soggy anymore but cold, and there is that hunger thing again, and fatigue has set in and oh why is it stiiilll cooold and why is there no foood?? Oh! There is the food... Its not cold anymore but oh.... so tired... oops no more flow of food WHERE IS ihhhoh.... So sleepy but hunger is still there... and now a bubble has trapped itself somewhere inside and it HURTS!! With no understanding of how to expel it... it is stuck and now there is no food! Why is there thumping when I want food and my belly hurts?

A confusing, thrilling, scary, exciting, bright, safe place to be is the world in which she lives...